Swag... more like a Fad!

So i was thinking about this whole fashion, swag, trends whatever you want to call it craze! I thought money ruled the world but these day it seems like fashion has become number one. It seems that everybody got swag, Im so sick of this word and how people use it for everything! Swag this swag that, swagger jacker.... blah blah!

Everyone seems to be caught up in this materialistic word. It funny how it works, From observations if you stand out, you fit in. And if you blend in youre a copy cat or better yet a swagger jacker. Dudes and females kill me when they feel someone biting they swag, if you gotta brag about it hten you aint got it! And being caught up in this whole materialistic world aint my thing! Some may say "she mad cuz she cant afford all that ish" lol

But I beg the differ i just choose not too. People that know me, know what it is.. hehe. I have plans and choose to think about more important things. Anyways Its all a fad... the things that hot not aint gonna be hot i bet two years from now! if youve noticed its constantly changing. Ive heard parents and grandparents say that was kool when i was a youngster. Things go aways and come back so why should i put all my time and energy in trynna to stand out when i really fit in.

I dont get it when a dude can buy a 150 dollar pair of shoes but his cell phone cut off! Yes Appearance is important but there's no need for a woman to be with a dude that cares only about his 100 pairs of shoes! You his girl and ask him for 5 dollars and he fresh as hell with $150 shoes, $65 shirt, $90 jeans but he cant give it to you! buddy got life twisted!

To People caught up in this whole Fad, think about the ample amount of money youve spent on clothing and accessories! Im sure you couldve done something alot better with it. Dont try to be big time and impress people especially if you aint made it yet!

Buddy System....?

And by buddy system i mean Cut Friend, Cutty buddies, Friend with benefits, etc! but i was thinking why guys and girls do it? Ive heard reasons like its convenient, I just like sex, 1 of the sex partners just got that "Good Good", or maybe one person thinks it'll eventually develop into a relationship! I have guy and girl friends thats atleast said one of those reasons they have buddies!

It is the 21st century i can see how people want things convenient! We want things to happen right away and sometimes not have to work for it ok... but i dont know if i want a sexual partner convient! What if they're convenient with others as well, not just you! Gross... youre askin for a STD! lol at the rate ppl are havin kids these days its kinda obvious protection isnt being used... IDIOTS! What happen to having to work hard for what u get? people dont think like that these days! its the fast life style thats kool i guess.

It crazy when People think something that's strictly sexual will develop into a solid relationship Esp. if the other person has no intentions. Basically theyre keeping you around until something better comes. Dont be the tag along, Youre just gonna keep gettin your feelings hurt from something u knew wasnt gonna happen in the first place! Esp. when u made yourself a sexaul target/object off the bat! Sorry but theyre just not into!

I mean i have nothing against it personally, not my cup of tea! I just dont get it, but hey do you! But do it Safely and RApp it up like BET!!

Kids... you gotta love them

Those pics up there are of my little cousin (Jaiden), who just turned 2 last week! My little cousin had him when she was 16 like the rest of the statistics these days but my mom stepped in for her. She still in school and graduates next year. I didnt know how this whole thing was gonna play out at first but it did for the best! He such a blessing & I love him to death. Its been amazing watching him grow up! I almost feel like hes mine, when Im with him until he poops or my fuse gets short so then i send him up to his mom! lol When he was first born He was so little all he did was eat! He had the biggest legs and ckeeks, I just wanted to bite them all the time lol. He started walkin early i think it was 9 months it was over from there! I knew he'd be gettin in everything soon! He never was a Fussy baby, like the ones that cried all night, he only cried when he was hungry or wet! Thats the kinda kid i want to too lol When he was about 1 we would talk to him and altho he couldnt talk you could see he wanted to because he would move his lips like he was talkin back... it was so cute!! Now that hes 2 he repeats everything i mean everything he hears! Even when i mom curses at my little siser or cousins! And we'll realize it when hes running around repeating it! oh gosh hes gonna get kicked out of daycare lol Its amazing how kids develop and they're so smart! He knows all of our names, count to 10, and hes forming sentences! My mom sits at home and teaches him most of it! He knows where his shoes go when he come home from day care, he cleans his on toys up, he does whatever my mom says when it comes to discipline! She'll make him sit on the couch and just watch tv! but with me he hardly ever listens, i guess cuz i play with him alot! Its kool i dont care, we just be wrestling and playing. oh, Did i mention i love him!
I can almost understand when someone says theres no love like the love of your children. I say that because i love jaiden very much, no im not his mom but its a different love. Ive always been the type to say i dont think i want kids! I mean they're so cute and adorable but not for me! Theyre so innocent and i dont see how someone could hurt them! but watching my cousin grow up really changed my mind i think! Now instead of none i only want one! lol but being around him makes me excited, nervous, happy, a little anxious to start my family in the future! No time soon im talking bout like 7 years from now! lol but when i think about it, its exciting espcially to have my own unconditional love like i mention before!

Where Amazing happens!!

You were cool from the first day we met.
The intensity and fast pace is what i liked best.
Understanding the rules wasnt hard at all.
But I had to get used to using a bigger ball.

You see, Softball was my first love.
So many didnt quite fathom me giving up my glove.
With you i could always play by myself.
Unlike softball, i always needed someone else.

This relationship we have is different than most.
You dont get mad and actually like it when i boast.
Jealousy doesnt occur when i want to do other things.
Because deep down you know the joy you bring.

I tried to break up a few years back.
But the competitiveness and Drive kept me coming back.
The unexpected and spectacular plays make this game.
Basketball is the sport, and life without it isnt the same.

What do you Do when love isnt enough?

So you were with this guy for 2 yrs. You both met your freshman yr of college. You thought he was handsome plus he was tall and athletic. Right away he makes you feel comfortable, it must have been his laid back and chill personality. But he definitely had a a sense of humor, jokes were a little corny but they fit him. You love music but never met anyone who loved it as much until you met him. He listened to all varieties and genres but he definitely had a thing for hip-hop! Not Rap like TI, Wayne etc. but old school flow. as you date you realize this guy is different than anybody you've dated before. You guys spend your days, week, and months together. Thats until he tells you at a point that he doesnt want a girlfriend and thinks you guys should take a break! He tells you hes distracted and needs to focus on ball & getting his grades up. You dont really know what a break consist of because youve never been on one. Youre upset cuz you really like him, but hey what can you do? Nothin but wait i guess... and thats exactly what you do! Hes talkin to his ex. over the little break but no biggie cuz youre talkin to yours. A few weeks later he apologizes & wants to get back together and of course you say yes!

So your back to spending days, weeks, & months together. Things are great and for the 1st time he even tells you he loves you and cares about you alot to sum it up. youre like YES, you felt the same way but didnt say anything cuz you wasnt sure if he did. You both know how each other finally feels. As time goes by things are awesome between you two until you realize you made a huge mistake creating him a facebook a few months back! lol Well u have his password and sees he messaged a girl on campus sayin he liked her and wanted to get to know her! Youre pissed & breakup with him. He tries to lie & sweet talk you but you seen it with your own eyes! At this point you begin to do you! We all know that consist of spending more time with the homegirls, alot more going out which means less church, drinking, and talking to other guys. All things you didnt do before... He realizes you dont care when you really do, youre just partying to cover it up.

Did i say he was a sweet talker, Well if not... "HES A SWEET TALKER" lol he does that and you go back but hes actually living up to what he said. Although things are going good, you dont stop partying. You just cant drop the homegirls or you know you'll hear it from them (Chicks b4 Dicks) Of course he doesnt like you partying on wk ends when you should be with him. Nothing changes until he goes back to his hometown in Tennessee for the summer while youre in GA. He pulls the plug for some crappy reason, You cant change his mind. SO your parents sees your heart broken and the moms def. doesnt like him from hear out. So you work and date over the summer but nothing offical cuz you know you & him both have to go back to school! Despite what friends and mom say you know your gonna give him another chance when he comes back, cuz he always does! Thats exactly what you do. You both decide to not do the whole break up every 2 wks & communicate better! Things went great that whole school term besides the him not doing the little things but you didnt sweat it cuz you seen the bigger picture. You QUIT partying and Things were finally lookin up.

HaHa... NOT! You became robocop one day while he was in the shower & found some stuff in his phone. WOW... you couldn't believe he had been cheating the past 3 mths. At that very moment the bigger picture crumbled into pieces, it didnt matter anymore. The whole time you've been convincing yourself he was diffrent but reality is he wasnt, just typical like the rest. You felt like the dumbest and smallest person in the world! He apologizes for wks and you have 50 missed calls a day! Youre over it, and heard it all b4 like Sunshine Anderson! You ask yourself how can someone that says they love you to death do something so low. He says he did it cause he thot you were talkin to other ppl. Great reason Douche bag!! NOT so lets say you give him another chance, youre tired of the presure & phone calls so you give in! Youre back together but not really cuz you dont feel the same what so ever, your like a ghost basically when youre with him, and theres not Trust! Which causes arguments! You were just about over being his girlfriend and said youre leaving! It came to you like an epiphany (chrisette Michele)! Youre still hurt & decide to end things for good. He feels its out the blue but you have your reasons obiviously plus you kinda feel like you lost yourself during those two yrs.

He moves to TENN for good and you change schools. The break up was bitter so you didnt expect to ever hear from him again! well little did you know you were wrong because he hit you up on myspace 6mths later sayin "Whats up? how are you?" basically. You guys communicate pretty heavy from there over the next couple of months. 1st off hes in touch with his spiritual side which is awesome. Hes really considerate and matured, things he wasnt before. But as you talk those feelings you thought were gone come back, especially when he tells you he "still Loves you." Hes coming home for a wkend and wants to see you.

Of course you want to see him its been 9mths since youve seen him. So He comes & you guys reminisce, laugh, hug, & kiss! You feel so at home like it was just yesterday you were in his arms and you were together. He says hes thot about askin to get back together and deep down so do you! You both feel the same & love each other to death so why not? Its not that simple... He in TENN living his life while youre in GA and has 2 yrs of school left. Long distance is hard & youre not sure if either of you are really willing to put in the effort. Plus hes going to the air force, you know you'd be behind him in that but its just another curve ball! Plus who's to say he wont just go back to his old ways, & u cant truelly trust him. You think you want to try but theres a good chance it wont work of you guys being together, the odds are just too difficult i guess! Do you just have an understanding where you look at the situation like it is what is & You move on? So what do you do because love sure doesnt seem to be enough?

Before the Worst

I love this Group! just listening to the song the other day and decided to share it with you guys im sure some ppl can relate also!

Just Friends....

I now see from a males point of view of wanting to be just friends with a girl! No relationship, no sex, just kickin it here and there. Only friends, someone you mite hit up to go to the mall, movies, grab a bite to eat, or just watch tv or something. Before I thought girls couldnt be just friends with a guy without liking or wanting more out of friendship than there really is. Well now i see some dudes are the same way.

Its really annoying when you tell them you only want friendship and they're steady trying to get at you every chance they get. STOP it, espcially if you been tryin for a couple of years, Get the point it aint happening! Im JUST NOT INTO YOU, i mean your cool but just not boyfriend material. You dont want to be mean so you slowly stop the communication. Less texting, no phone calls, and maybe a facebook message once a month. After a while you'd think they get the point, when months later they hit with a messsage of hangin out. Ok kool, he just wants to hang, you know hes been talkin to other females and ive been datin! So youre nice and youve been friends for a while and you dont want be rude. You guys go to the mall and get something to eat then go your seperate ways. Youre like FINALLY... he gets it, & you hope theres another female in the picture lol. Well the texting gets back up to like every other day. He hasnt brought up the topic of you guys being together or dating!

Sike, well a month goes by and your at home chillen when a random text comes in. "Whats up baby, i just wanted to tell you how much im into you and that i be thinking about you all the time i dont know why. I been trynna get at you forever and i think right now would be a good time to give us a try!" DAMN!!! He doesnt get it after all! So your kinda fed up at this point and reply with your reasons which are legit of why you dont want a relationship right now or with him period. When your done hes like "Oh, ok! I feel ya well you dont have to worry about me bringin it up again." You feel like the world has been lifted off your shoulders.

I dont know why he thought between that time of less communication to now that it was gonna happen. Well you slowly bring him back down to earth..hehe and he said he understands! haha Not, Silly you! He texts you one day and wants to know if you want to go to a get together, its one of his boys! youre thinkin to yourself i better not go by myself so you ask if you can bring friends? hes like yeah sure! You guys get there and its nothing but his FAMILY! No, one our age 19-22 besides us. You meetin the family and stuff thinkin to yourself "thank God i didnt come by myself"! This Dude tried to set you up for the okie dokie! Your jus chillen when one family member ask which one of you pretty ladies is my nephew girlfriend. All eyes on you, you just want to drop down and die for a little while lol so you just smile and say "hes just my FRIEND!" the whole night there were wedding and girlfrien jokes. You were so embarrassed and pissed and ready to go but couldnt show it. So you leave thinkin this dude told his folk i was girl or maybe they jus know he like me and they were teasing him! Either way you dont care, you know he doesnt get it and you decide to stop the communication again! Theres no Hope of being JUST FRIENDS!!

Just Me and You

Surrounded by these empty for walls,
Its just you and me.
Oh, No! Not again.
How could this be?

So whats the plan today?
Its just you and me.
Hope its not much, im too tired to play.
I was just in this same place the other day!

Aren't you getting tired of this?
Its just you and me.
When life was filled with such bliss,
Are the days that i miss.

Before you came along life was great, you see?
Now its just you and me.
All i want, is to be free.
I guess its my fault for inviting misery!

I wanna be....

As I was thinking the other day about my childhood and how i was so care free. I also had an imagination. I remember being spaced out thinking about you know the typical stuff like "What I wanna be When I Grow up". My mom would be calling me, "Britt come here!" Still no answer so she eventually send my sister. Then shes like didn't you here me calling you? "No ma'am I was doing something!" lol but as a child I had so much fun no matter what. I stayed outside with the boys all day from playing tag to football to catching lighting bugs lol, i was a tomboy! I was actually better and faster than most of them i was playing with lol. I loved sports and softball was my favorite until my uncle introduced me to organized basketball.

Softball was my first LOVE and my thrive for competition! I started at the age of four but as i kid i remember just loving the feeling of a team. I pitched, so when the crowd applauded when i would strike out the batter was awesome while my teammates gave me high fives. I didnt mind all the practices growing up and spending my Saturdays playing all day. I was good at it and wanted to play the rest of my life although i knew it wasnt a professional team. I figured it would be by the time i got older.

I started recreation basketball when i was 12. It was kool at first and i just continued to play because i was good. I didnt put softball on the back burner until 8th grade in middle school when i played and watched it less. I slowly began to fall in love with basketball. It was more competitive and physical. I was quick, athletic, and a nice jump shot! I loved every minute of it from middle school to high school. Its all i did. I wanted to play in college and eventually WNBA. If u asked what i wanted to do when i grow up thats the answer i would give you. I remember some would say "what if it dont work out"? I'd smirk and would reply "it is, thats not an option".

It wasnt an option until my senior yr i didnt get any offers in mail from colleges. lol Boy was that a rude awaking! "When i grow up" was about to changed again! Man, What else do i want to do? I mean i did like what the athletic trainer did when we got hurt, Its related to sports. And i heard that got paid good money. But a PE teacher seem easy also, At least at my high school. Paid vacations, possibly coach one day! They both seem like good ideas.

College rolled around and i decided to go with the Athletic trainer. Ball was out of the picture besides the causal pick up games you know. So i took my college courses at the middle Ga college (JUCO) on my path to become an athletic Trainer. My sophomore yr came around and the basketball coach wanted me to try out! WOW... couldn't believe it, didnt even expect it. I made the team and my jr yr I transferred to Emmanuel College (NAIA) to play Where i play currently! Its kool, no its not D1 but not many people say they're in college playing ball. So im thankful but i look at it now as more of a job & It helps pay for school. When i got to EC i heard they had a great kinesiology program. I began to think about how difficult it would be t find an athletic training job espically with this economy! One day i volunteered at a physical therapist clinic. I loved the environment. I wanted to work with others and help them recover and just observed patients progress. Yet, again I changed my mind about what i wanted to be. Yeah thats it a Physical Therapist! Finally... I found something that would make me happy and actually enjoy doing everyday. I graduate next yr with my bachelors and cant wait to get started in my career :)

I didnt realize how kids imaginations run wild until i thought about me as little one. Boy, The plans we have and its funny how some work out and some don't. But thats what we do as kids have fun and imagine. It helped me figure out what "I Really Wanna BE....."

-Bruski

AARADHNA

Well I came across the soulful charm of Aaradhna. Her voice is very soulful and before i looked her up i didnt know what she looked like but i didnt think she'd be from New Zealand. But Girl can sing and These are two of my favorite songs from her I Love you album.

Hope, Love, & Memories

How could something feel so good and bad at the same time.
I knew i wasnt supose to let these emotions resurface.
Deep down i knew you'd come back somewhere down the line.
You always did.

So you came back for a moment which felt like forever.
My world was a stand still, filled with bittersweet memories.
I asked myself if we could ever be again,
Without thinkin the answer is Never.
Im a different person then i used to be.

But I ignored my Brain and intuition.
I got caught up in the moment of the old you and me.
You said You "Still Love me" but what are your intentions,
Because im not trynna get hurt under your old conditons.
You seem to have changed but we'll see.

Months go by as we talk i feel like Im in heaven.
Im floating away , please someone catch me.
You're considerate, Intelligent, and in touch with your religion.
Where were these things when we were together?
Because you used to change up on me like GA weather.

Things are different now, i cant wait for you to come home.
Just me and you, our theme song.
Then i got a text, Little did i know i was wrong.
He said im not comin.... "This week is off"
Why? This is our only chance we had of movin on.

Now everything we talked about is gone.
And all u can say is I Love you & Good Bye.
Im sittin here with my back against the wall.
Shortly after that the tears began to fall.
I knew it would happen after all.

-Bruski

NEWNESS :)

Don't you love it when Things are brand new.... I tend to like it sometimes! New kicks, New seasons of the hills, New wall post on facebook lol! You get the idea... Well in this case of Newness i like and it seems as if it came at the right time!!! Everything is Cool when love is all brand new! Cause you're learning me and I'm learning you, Its Cool cause you're learning me and I'm learning you!

I enjoy talking late hrs conversations on the phone although i havent really did that since high school... but getting to know u is so cool! Theres not a dull moment, we laugh & talk about crazy stuff almost whatever comes to mind! lol I havent met someone thats just so easy to talk to that im actually into in a while! I feel as if we already knew each other! I tend to think why? Maybe its me being a kid at heart, or maybe its you being 2 1/2 yrs younger than me, or its just you being mature for you age. Who knows but i like it...As a girl i do get shy at times... but u had a presence where you made me feel comfortable right off the bact! Boy, It so cool talkin to u & it gets better every minute i talk to you! :)

I actually look forward to the morning Texts eg. Have a Great day babe! hehe. Its the little things... Since ive been talkin to Newness we made a list of things we have in common (cheesy i know) but its different never did it b4 and we're at 51.. It can only go up from here! :) At one point i thought newness was almost to good to be true! Considering we did meet kinda accidently... He still might be... but i think ill try to stick around to see!

Me and Newnes dont hang, chill, date, or whatever you perfer becuase hes about 6 hrs away in the next state but hes comin down for my 21st bday tho!! yayy :) I dont think anything will truelly evolve... you know that word (eg. relationship!) Who knows later on down the road? If Not i wouldnt mind a bestfriend thats a guy especially Newness! So my friends tell me eventually "dont think at some point Newness will be oldness"!! lol i laughed the lst time i heard her say it, it was funny! But to that i say... idk.. i guess he will! But Newness is kool right now so i aint thinkin about eventually.....

-Bruski

PEACE.LOVE>HAPPINESS

So this is my first BLog...
I decided to join because I was writtin my daily thots in a journal about different things then chose to get a blog and try it out instead! But the title is Peace love & happiness as u can see.. I chose that because its exactly how i feel right now in my life....so its kinda like a motto!

I'm not wealthiest (its a recession as we all know), but i dont act like it at times shoppin when i know my cell phone bill due!! hehe but Not everything goes perfect everyday but i must say i cant complain & im Blessed! I have great friends and family, & sometimes i wouldnt know what to do without them!! Im ending my jr yr as a college student working hard to be sucessful and make myself happy! But maybe along the way ill put a smile on someones face :)

So the Peace= is what it is! Well i consider myself a pretty cool chick to get along with everyone pretty much Guys and girls! im not the type of female that be like "I HAVE MORE GUY FRIENDS THAN GIRLS CUZ GIRLS ARE FAKE, BITCHES, ETC.." cut the crap i think u should take a look at yourself sometimes and see if ur the problem if u dont get alone with ANY female! altho some girls are caddy im just the type of person right now that wants to meet and come across as many ppl as i can! i say that because the more ppl i know and get to meet i feel i can learn something from them! No matter if its love and relationships, life, business, etc you never know! It'll only help me grow as a person! I'll also feel as if i mite learn what not to do by observing others experiences ya know! I've grown alot of the pst few yrs and im still climbing :)


LOVE... oh boy...
Well lets say im content right now! Im not lookin for love but if it finds me, thats kool to! Im also learning what true love is.. i think i almost got it but not quite sure..hhmmm! Love is bittersweet, it the best thing at times! Itll have u feelin superhuman like chris & Keri, then it also has it lows, the pain, and headaches! but When your on your high horse man cant nobody tell u nothing! lol anyways Love in my life right now is good... altho i may not have the love of the a male species right now but i know i ALWAYS have my Fam that loves me to death! I know this cuz the tell me often hehe! My family is very tight nit and I must truelly say the moms is my best friend! I know with her thats unconditional Love :)

Happiness :)
is within... ive learned that i have to make myself happy before i can go looking for happiness somewhere else! I guess u can say im in my happy place right now! lol... I Enjoy life, i only got one so why not? Ive come to enjoy the simple things in life! I love to laugh whether its with or at you sorry.... Ive always been the class clown i even got an award in 3rd grade! how you like them apples? So even if i dont ever achieve anything else in my life i have an CLASS CLOWN award(totally kiddin)but I dont make a big deal of things that doesnt really matter! U jus gotta chill sometimes and let things go... I can actually have fun by myself believe it or not lol I'd rather not but in some cases i have! theres alot of things that make me happy, like ridin with my windows down, blastin the radio and singin! AWW.... best altho i can t sing :( Music makes me happy! It speaks volume whenu cant find the words to say!
Just walkin outside to the sun shinning and pretty green grass makes my happy! I just say do what makes you feel good and smile! one of my favorite quotes is "If you cant see the bright side of life, polish the dull side" Be optimistic... I promis if u do these thing and just be free youll be happy and find your happy place :)

-Bruski