His Will...

Its been a while bloggers, Ive been pretty busy here lately with school, ball, and my internship. I just had to post this blog about my growth over the past few yrs & my relationship with the man upstairs. Im so happy with life right now and where im at, not saying everything is perfect 24/7 but I truelly have a different outlook about life.

I grew up in the church. If i wasnt with my grandmother, an evangelist, my mom definitely had me and my sister there. I actually remember when my grandmother taught me how to pray. I was about 4 or 5 and I say that prayer til this day but along with more things. Of course i've aged so i'd say is more advanced from the age of 5 lol. I sang in the church choir from about 10- 17, even lead a few songs. I was baptized when i was 13. Im no stranger to Father, Son, and Holy ghost. So i guess i can say i've always had a relationship with God but During my adolescent i really didnt understand that u just cant go to church to go to heaven. During high school, i was in church evey sunday, some days of course because my mom dragged me. Stayed out Saturday nights partying with friends. But i managed to make it up at 8 am every Sunday. Still singing in the choir and bible studies along with other church activities throughout the week. It never crossed my mind until now i really wasnt growning spiritually because i was still of the world and doing things i wasnt spose to like partying and takin things for granted. Not really being thankful for things like most teenagers do.

I go to college, & yeah i did get to experience the "College Life". I did my work but i must say my partying out weighed my studying. I didnt attend church not nearly as much as i should've. I blamed it on the distance because my school was 2 hrs away from home. (LAME EXCUSE I KNOW) because there were plenty of churches i couldve attended around my school. So mostly my freshman i partyed with the home girls and lost touch with my spiritual side. During my sophomore year i stopped the partying and drinking. It simply got old, i didnt enjoy it was much as i used to. I knew i wasnt living right so i stopped. Although i stopped, still didnt attend church or read my bible. But i was merely just ACTIN GOOD, which doesnt give u the key to the pearly gates. It was a start.

I transferred schools, and decided to transfer to a Christian school where i am now. Its not much to do around here. Its small but the most important part is i like it. When i first got here it was a totally different vibe from what i was used to. I must say that it was almost wierd lol. The people around seem different, kind odd, so i was like "what did i get myself into." I told myself this could be a good thing and embrace it. The first year here i kinda went through the motions. We have these services on Tuesdays and Wednesdays that is mandatory called Chapel and convocation. I skipped a few. we're also required to take bible classes. I really didnt care for those at first bcuz they were long and kinda boring. I still hung out and partied occasionally. So one day i was thinking, "I'm taking steps back". That's not what i wanted so i stopped gain, attended church on the regular besides school and did more studying of the bible. And really focused on my relationship with God. But i struggled with how people (FRIENDS) would think of me and that i wouldnt be able have fun anymore.

So i then prayed about it and God spoke to me. I shouldnt care what people think of me, it only matters to him and how he perceives me. And that it was time to stop playin and get serious about it and thats what i did. I took what i learned in my bible classes and applied them to my personal studies in the bible. Since opening my heart to him and embracing my situation with my school i must say its the best decision i've made ever. Im such a happier person, it feels like i have this new Inner peace. Im able to not hold grudes and forgive people. Ive grown alot closer to my family on my dads side. I take nothing for granted and more optimistic than ever about any situation. Its amazing how He works and reveals himself. Im soooooo thankful for Him and all he has done for me. If i had a thousand tongues i couldnt say thank you enough. I keep him first at all times bcuz i know everything else will fall into place even when things dont go my way. I know he will not leave nor forsake me! If no one else has my back he does. When I have no one else to talk i know he's always there to listen. This is the new me like it or not but i dont care because I LOVE IT! Hopefully one day i wanna go on a mission trip because last yr it didnt work out! Ill just pray about it :) I know the devils gonna try attack me from angles but im grounded so i will not fall.

John 14:16-17 (The Message) The Spirit of Truth

If you love me, show it by doing what I've told you. I will talk to the Father, and he'll provide you another Friend so that you will always have someone with you. This Friend is the Spirit of Truth. The godless world can't take him in because it doesn't have eyes to see him, doesn't know what to look for. But you know him already because he has been staying with you, and will even be in you!



God Bless♥