How it used to Be!

I'm not going to lie,I can't even count the days
Or the many nights I tried living here alone
A heart full of pride
Couldn't see the enemy was me
I was blind and thought my second chance was gone
A ship without a sail
Battered by the raging sea
Taking any love I can to try and stop the rain
While waiting to exhale I finally got on my knees
I know it's been a long time
Do you still remember my name?

Can I go back in time?
Can I have another try?
But I can't change yesterday

I Can't take another day without you
Cause this heart don't beat the same without you
I forgot who I was
Got caught up in this world
JESUS I apologize
I should've lost my mind without you
Not another sleepless night without you JESUS
I'm sorry and I'm asking please
Make me how I used to be

I try and try to keep my mind on you
But trouble keeps calling me
Every time a wound heals
Something else takes the healing away
But even when I've gone too far
You don't even call my name
Mama said if you love let it go
And if it comes back then it's back to stay
You already knew I belong to only you
I run to your arms and say

Thank You JESUS

Never knew a life so cold
Thought that things could fulfill my soul
Tried to find LOVE on my own
It was hard to admit I was wrong
BUT THAT'S THE 1ST STEP...
I don't know what's gonna happen that's alright with me. I open up my arm and just Embrace the mystery